I truly appreciate what you said. It's nice to hear this from a BPD perspective. I've had many pschiatrists and most never mentioned BPD. and I guess I thought tough love would maybe get through to her, but it's been 3 and 1/2 years since I have seen or talked to her or my grandchildren. I've learned how to focus on the important things and how to handle my emotions. Unfortunately, a few years later, the societal stigma against mental illness reared its ugly head. If BDP people are triggered into the abyss of misery, then so are we. Should I also even bother being a counselor if I am like this? She struggles with accepting herself and most of all loving herself which in turn hinders her from being healthy both mentally and physically. It felt as though my very real issues were being labelled as some sort of 'mood swing'. Thank you. You don't have to be completely "healed" to pursue your dreams. Her idea of help is everyone doing what she wants, on her schedule. Debbie, what a brilliant letter! Maybe we should bandage our heads and hearts. Our brains literally disconnect, and our thoughts go somewhere else, as our brains are trying to protect us from additional emotional trauma. Thanks for your beautiful letter it reminds me that she can't help it and we were close for 32 years so close. Please be aware that this might heavily reduce the functionality and appearance of our site. It's not your fault. There are nine possible criteria for diagnosing BPD, but an individual only needs to . I wish I could show this to my boss. But I would like to point out that I am not (neither are other people with this disorder) hopeless to date. I so desperately want you to understand. I figured it out, but only through trial, error, therapy, a good online support group and a lot of introspection and self-care on my part. Keep up all the good work here! I pray that she is able to find a place where you are now. I want to know that humanity can be beautiful. Once calm, the family can together have an open discussion and achieve setting small goals for the person with BPD. These episodes can get farther and fewer between, and we can experience long periods of stability and regulation of our emotions. I will try and find your blog, Lots of love Kat. I wish to God it would stop. Click on the different category headings to find out more. You know what, I wouldn't have been able to write it 6 years ago. Thanks for commenting. Thank you for sharing it with this forum. BPD is also sometimes known as 'emotionally unstable personality disorder', but even that label feels somewhat prejudiced to me. This is coming from the mouth of the same guy who proposed to me last year. Thank you so much for posting this. Now she teaches DBT, has written several books and has a blog called, Previous post: Finding peace amongst the turmoil, An Open Letter to People who do Not have Borderline Personality Disorder from Those of Us who Do, this blog (Healing from BPD by Debbie Corso), Remind yourself that the persons behavior isnt your fault, Tap into your compassion for the persons suffering while understanding that their behavior is probably an intense reaction to that suffering, Do things to take care of YOU. A certain song, sound, smell, or words can quickly fire off neurological connections that bring us back to a place where we didnt feel safe, and we might respond in the now with a similar reaction (think of military persons who fight in combat a simple backfiring of a car can send them into flashbacks. Find out how you can be a NAMI HelpLine specialist. I have to also find a doctor. It can be hard to witness someone's pain, and one of the pitfalls for therapists is to lose faith in the person going through the therapy, particularly when building up one's own DBT skills. I suspect that if she were to sit across from a psychologist she would be able to fool them, but I am about to test that. But what the BPD sees as abandonment, we see as self care (which ironically is one of the suggestions handed down in this open letter). They have similar symptoms, but I don't believe they can be classified the same. Thanks again. Your mind, your body, are completely taken over and you end up doing something you regret deeply but have to live with. Tonight I started to think: Maybe he's just giving me time to cool down after the last contact we had, and then he'll be in touch. I am sorry you didn't have a happy childhood. i was wondering if you could answer something for me though. I don't know what to do anymore. I read your letter Debbie and most of the post. I got therapy, I asked for help and got it. It's a horribly helpless feeling to watch someone you love in pain. Shows that YES there is hope and not only have you found it but, you have it held tightly in your grasp!! This blog was extremely helpful for me, and sincerely appreciate it. He is desperate I know. If you refuse cookies we will remove all set cookies in our domain. ", As an adult who is trying to work past the damage that was done growing up with a BPD mother reading the last part of your response made me cry. Thank you for being who you are. That is certainly not easy. I want to know that honesty and loyalty exist. Thank you for the article. , Hi Tea You're welcome, and thank you as always for the kind feedback. Every single time you bring me back down when I'm fighting through a trembling and breathless panic attack that makes absolutely no sense to you. Dr. Marsha Linehan's inspirational story of overcoming the struggles of BPD, becoming an expert on BPD and creating Dialectical Behavioural Therapy (DBT). You are not the cause of our suffering. Thanks, i'm going to share this with my partner. Please trust that, with professional help, and despite what you may have heard or come to believe, we CAN and DO get better. You can see glimpses and more and more of who that person really is over time, if you dont give up. DebbieThis is a beautiful, beautiful letter. Ive read that DBT could be the answer to her unpredictable behaviour and fears, the problem is that we were stuck in a step before. No one from the hospital has ever contacted me about her condition or treatment plan, I have been left totally in the dark and out of her recovery. This is an extreemly complicated disorder. SANE Helpline. For more information, visit our Terms of Service & Privacy Policy page. I refuse to believe it. My mother talks to her and says she doesn't even sound like the person we used to know. I am a mess. People will tell you that whatever you did was your fault, and you will believe it, but they dont and cant understand how hard you fought to keep control. clearly point to BPD. Privacy The following cookies are also needed - You can choose if you want to allow them: You can read about our cookies and privacy settings in detail on our Privacy Policy Page. I am so sorry that you were treated badly becuase of your diagnosis. I never agreed with the diagnosis either for myself and realized I actually have complex PTSD. Improve the Moment (and Your Life) with DBT, Interpersonal Effectiveness: DBT Skills at Work. It was only ever a matter of time and what scared me the most was the thought that youd find someone who would treat you better, who wasnt so weighed down. I can only hope with every breath in my body that she can be 'cured' and live a normal and happy life. He says that the money we spent on therapy and meds has done nothing to help; he doesn't think it's worth it. And I know that my reaction to him is so very. She loves her, she wants her to be happy, but to be verbally, emotionally and even sometimes physically abused, she can't be always 'there' for her. All we can do is pray at this point. Don't think we will ever get back now, gotta give it to her though, she was the only one who understood me. Furthermore, this grandparent generally claims to be perfectly well and claims that there is something wrong with all the rest of us. Its not your fault. Don't write her off. This is an open letter to anyone willing and/or needing to listen. Debbie, Thank you so much for commenting. I have watched you over the course of our relationship walk over many mountains. Life is such a struggle. I'd use this (edit it of course) if I was getting the help I need. It is killing my spirit. I LOVE lashing out at my supportive boyfriend (thank GOD he is learning about this). This is my second year in DBT. I hope we can be friends in time and partners in raising our son. We were married for 12 years and the relationship was defined by me reassuring her that she was good enough, while she would constantly go through massive unpredictable mood swings. It's sad that I would have to use our son as an instrument to get my wife in front of a mental health professional, but it is the only way I can see him being protected from the long term effects of this mental illness. It gives me hope.x. Happy for you both. This is very hard!! Dating someone with borderline personality disorder (BPD) can be difficult at times, but it doesn't have to be something that harms your relationship. This is called dissociation. By sharing your experience, you can let others know that they are not alone. , There are still some professionals who are not up to speed with the treatments that can effectively help those with BPD. Were not saying its right. We can work through this destructive pattern and learn how to be healthier in the context of relationships. People with BPD typically have very strong emotional responses to events that seem minor to observers. Early on in our diagnosis and before really digging in deep with DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy), we dont have the proper tools to tell you this or ask for your support in healthy ways. My hope is that you will gain new insight into your loved ones condition and grow in compassion and understand for both your loved one AND yourself, as this is not an easy road. Thank you for sharing it and passing it along! Boredom is often dangerous for us, as it can lead to the feelings of emptiness. Debbie, Thank you so much for your comment. I think these blogs are more educational than a generic medical article about BPD. ive stuck with her while she tells people 1365 dif reasons we arent together. I have never sought treatment (aside from counseling) for my BPD, because mostly group therapy is suggested and the last thing I want to do is talk to a bunch of strangers about my problems . My mother has informed herself about bpd, so that she can give me the support I need in a way that I can accept it. Otherwise you will be prompted again when opening a new browser window or new a tab. Dave M everything that you wrote is what I'm going through at the moment. | by Marissa Young | Medium Write Sign up Sign In 500 Apologies, but something went wrong on our end. I have beeen through 3 years of DBT therapy and figuring out who i am and how i came to have this horrible disorder. There is a FUTURE, just DONT GIVE UP, be STRONG, get HELP. Sometimes we take a preemptive strike by disowning people before they can reject or abandon us. If you've ever read anything about BPD, you've probably heard of people who are "abusive . Borderline Personality Disorder: Is there hope? There is nothing you can do to fix it. Listening to your loved one and acknowledging their feelings is one of the best ways to help someone with BPD calm down. I feel like he doesn't understand that it's a process it will take a long time. One must only have 5 symptoms out of 9 to qualify for a diagnosis, and the combinations of those 5-9 are seemingly endless. To receive a diagnosis of BPD, five of these nine symptoms need to be present (1): Feeling empty, or having low self-esteem. , You have made so much progress!! I have no nearby friends. There are many different borderline personality disorder symptoms or traits including: feeling empty inside. A common call to the SANE Helpline often goes like this: 'I think my partner, daughter or son has borderline personality disorder (BPD) and I feel like I have to walk on eggshells around them. It sounds like your Mom cares to find out what's happening for you. Initially I thought we just fell out of love and she was unable to deal with that reality (like maybe she needed a larger reason like alcoholism or abuse rather than just drifting apart). This site uses cookies to give you the best, most relevant experience. It's not your fault. Sometimes the best thing to do, if you can muster up the strength in all of your frustration and hurt, is to grab us, hug us, and tell us that you love us, care, and are not leaving. We may avoid you, not answer calls, and decline invitations to be around you and other times, all we want to do is be around you. Leaving university during the recession, where there were no jobs in my chosen field, was a pretty anxious time. Needless to say, if you have a loved one with BPD, life can be fraught with crises and conflict. I told my siblings what I really thought of them a couple days before that, because they always use my past against me, and lie about me. Did the self-medicating thing too. This insidious illness is as we know is the relationship killer. "It was a sort of love few other people could understand. Life can be hard for all of us at times, and if you are struggling with the problems that face people with BPD then it can get really tough. I had no hope in life, no future as it seemed. I hope your husband is able to open his heart and read the letter. Dear Friends, Family Members, Lovers, Ex-lovers, Coworkers, Children, and others of those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder. Linda, thank you for taking the time to share these thoughts, as they will no doubt help others who read this post and scroll down to see your comment. She read some of your other posts and she said she could see a lot of similarities between us. I'm really glad she did; now I can see mistakes that I've made dealing with her, and I know how to be a better and more supportive husband. I have subjected myself to 2 abusive relationships, and have 2 children by both of my abusers. How is this possible? The following are trademarks of NAMI: NAMI, NAMI Basics, NAMI Connection, NAMI Ending the Silence, NAMI FaithNet, NAMI Family & Friends, NAMI Family Support Group, NAMI Family-to-Family, NAMI Grading the States, NAMI Hearts & Minds, NAMI Homefront, NAMI HelpLine, NAMI In Our Own Voice, NAMI On Campus, NAMI Parents & Teachers as Allies, NAMI Peer-to-Peer, NAMI Provider, NAMI Smarts for Advocacy, Act4MentalHealth, Vote4MentalHealth, NAMIWalks and National Alliance on Mental Illness. Additionally, the structured environment and clear communication skills required in event planning can help individuals with BPD manage their emotions and improve their interpersonal skills. Thank you for taking the time to share your story. Last week however i still was in the dark and thought i was just depressed. Unfortunately, many kids of BPD's become BPD themselves because they learn the thought patterns, behaviors, and unstable feelings as a normal way to be. One must only have 5 symptoms out of 9 to qualify for a diagnosis, and the combinations of those 5-9 are seemingly endless. Very occasionally, though (It just happened three nights ago for the 4th time in our 15-month relationship), I'll lose my own head and say some terse and unfair things. I tried to cheer her up and I thought we ended the evening on amiable terms. i haven't figured out what i think about BPD.. i've been diagnosed with it several times and as a result the system has treated me TERRIBLY. symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder, Impulsivity and Borderline Personality Disorder, Borderline Personality Recovery: What It Can Look Like. I just want to Scream at the both of them saying how the hell can you both do this!!!!???? . I worked as part of a DBT team during the last few years before my retirement. Its like every step I had ever taken to better myself since my diagnosis, just never happened. I would never fall inlove and start a family. Your email address will not be published. I wish I could get my husband to read this. BPD, Ghosting, and Abandonment Issues WHEN A PERSON WITH BPD IS GHOSTED It can be incredibly difficult when someone suddenly disappears or "ghosts" from your life especially once you've risked your heart, allowed yourself to be vulnerable, and have become emotionally attached or invested. I have learned with time and education on my part that her pain is not my fault and it is not my responsiblity to fix. When crises occur, family members can help achieve emotional stability by encouraging slow breathing to reduce pressure. Explore the different options for supporting NAMI's mission. People with BPD traits often have "object permanence" issues - "out of sight is out of mind". I hope somewhere in her heart she truly KNOWS the love I have for her and though I may never be able to see it returned to me, I everyday press on in my efforts to support her and encourage positive change. She acts more like she's about 16 most of the time. However, it's my belief that the letter does little to help the children of borderlines. But now that i know i have BPD and i know what it means I feel like I will eventually have control over it. The letter F. An envelope. Somewhere between 1.6% and 5.9% of adults in the US have BPD, a personality disorder that's characterized by difficulty regulating emotion. But right now, she would react in a completely negative way to even the suggestion that she needs help. I buried and oppressed all my feelings and emotions inside because I was afraid of ruining the one thing I had that made me feel slightly better, our family you and the children. She cant acknowledge there is a problem, much less attend therapy or consider consulting a therapist. I had struggled long and hard, it was enough. Its smart for us to stay busy and distract ourselves when boredom starts to come on. He pushes me away but I can hear his cry for help. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a mental health condition defined by the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (the bedrock clinical manual of the mental health field). Debbie, Dave, thank you so much for taking the time to comment. Why is BPD hard to diagnose and really not curable? It will take time and a lot of effort. I have had to go No Contact because when I do contact him, my addiction to him leaves me suicidal with depression. | The struggle of those with BPD relationally, is rooted in a proverbial no-win situation. Darlene Lancer, JD, LMFT. I'n sending a hug to you . please know that at the very same time that we are pushing you away with our words or behavior. I am sorry I was selfish. Just be there for her in the end when she needs you. A Brief Look at My Life with Borderline Personality Disorder. Between my parents, family, and middle school, I have enough scarring that just won't heal up right. I walked away so she wouldnt have to deal with that; because no one should have to. In addition to learning more about BPD and how to self-care around it, be sure to do things that you enjoy and that soothe you, such as getting out for a walk, seeing a funny movie, eating a good meal, taking a warm bath whatever you like to do to care for yourself and feel comforted. I know it always comes out wrong. Thanks again. My wife says she is learning a lot but she is still barking orders and yelling and telling me I am not doing things right on her behalf. Proud of you for going back to work. Debbie,I just LOVE LOVE LOVE your honesty and compassion. Its as if we havent outgrown that. He is aware of his disorder and I saw him fought many times. Thank you so much for this letter. I wish I had read this 6 year's ago. I am very glad to hear about the understanding you're experiencing within your family. Hi Debbie, I certainly appreciate your open letter. Part of that process is for the parents to submit to therapy as well. Another thing you may have noticed is that spaced out look on our faces. We provide you with a list of stored cookies on your computer in our domain so you can check what we stored. You havebecome a homemaker, a mother and a wife. I wish you peace. Everyday I sit with teenage girls in crisis, and oftentimes I think they struggling to find the words you expressed so eloquently in your letter. Love, Linda <3. My girlfriend has BPD, and I've been at my wits' end, not knowing how to deal with it. She is educated and successful, and to all the other people in her life, except for close family, she seems confident and put together. The right kind of help. I can tell you, from personal experience, that working on this illness through DBT is worth the fight. Share your story, message,poem, quote, photo or video of hope, struggle or recovery. I did drink, but it always leads me to dangerous places. In Borderline Personality Disorder, many of us experience identity disturbance issues. -JB. It makes a difference for us!! Help your loved one through their BPD. All of this is new to me, just as it is with so many others, and as much as I would love the help of regular therapy I know that I have to help myself - but it is HARD. 50 reviews of McLean Hospital "You know what? Distancing can also trigger all kinds of abandonment and trust issues for the "BPD" partner (as described in #4). A normal life can be had. Thank you, and best wishes for the future. I wanted to throw in the towel and give up on life. I have BPD and I'm currently in grad school to get a Master's in social work. Thankyou, I can only imagine the courage it must have taken for you to write this for us! Smiles, Well here goes. This isn't to say that they're evil. I don't think it is heartless that you've chosen to put your family first and set boundaries that is healthy! It's like you're a baby learning everything all over again. Open Letter from those with Borderline Personality Disorder (With Narration and Text) Healing From BPD 16.3K subscribers 529K views 10 years ago Click here to read the full letter in. Changes will take effect once you reload the page. You are a source of admiration, thanks for your courage and generous words. This blog is a torment to me because it makes me think he could change. Their moods are so intense that they interfere with everyday life. This time tho I just dont know if I can walk in all the pain any longer. Learn how your comment data is processed. I've been doing gratefulness journals since 2000. The emotion can easily become unbearable, which is when the BPD takes control. This post is just to give you an idea of the typical suffering and thoughts those of us with BPD have. Top Picks for BPD (and other) Books [Facebook Live Stream], Recent Facebook Live: Importance of Self-Care and Emotional Sensitivity (BPD), Fear of Real or Imagined Abandonment & BPD, Facts, Assumptions, and Missing Pieces in Seth Meyers, Psy.D.s Price of Loving SomeoneBorderline, The Sadness Spiral (BPD and Afraid to Feel), Trauma Triggers: Tips for Handling Visits From Estranged Family Members (BPD), 3 Ways To Handle Feelings Of Abandonment When A Loved One Travels, Real life vs. Social Media: Who are you really? Wow is all I can say!!! I feel helpless, powerless to get my feelings accross. wow. You have to find the tools that work for you personally. I just wish more people were aware of how damaging the things they say really are to anyone with any kind of mental illness. I am so glad that you believe it will be helpful. We can learn grounding exercises and apply our skills to help during these episodes, and they may become less frequent as we get better. People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. Now that I know she has BPD, it is too late for me to do anything more to help her. i love your article and i wish that i was that far ahead; we are given just one year of dbt then we get on with it alone; there may be a graduate group but it will only be every month or two for a few hours and no therapy; my dbt ended about a month ago and far from moving on i am regressing and i feel that i have never done it at all; i would so like to be able to see things as you do but it looks very unlikely that i ever will; i would say give thanks every day for what you have been given and spare a thought and maybe a prayer for those of us who are still in the pits and stuggling; one year is just not enough to make the skills part of ones life. At times I've felt as if, emotionally, I were being held hostage. Click to enable/disable _gat_* - Google Analytics Cookie. When I was told what it was, I went home and researched everything I could about it. I tried to be responsible. Thanks for reminding me that there are people out there who can still sympathise x, I have BPD, i'm from Norway. That evening I spoke to a LCSW who was able to confirm that all her actions (plus a prior divorce, SI, estrangement from her children, abusive father and ex-boyfriends, etc.) Or if you don't deserve that because there is nothing for them to "understand" because i have no real excuse for being this weak pathetic crazy annoying and hurtful person? Hay Debbie, I can relate to so much of this. My significant other felt the same way as yours that therapy was a waste of time and money, until I finally showed progress and began getting better through DBT. I work from home. An Open Letter From Myself, With BPD, To My Loved Ones. What stands out for me is HOPE! There is a lot of misconception out there about BPD. People with borderline personality disorder (BPD) struggle to understand how wives, husbands, friends, and other family members experience their intense reactions, mood swings, and risky behavior. Get hand-picked resources and highlights from our Mighty community straight to your inbox. I handle things differently thru all the therapy and med changesI still wish it to go away..since now have Bipolar tendencies and PTSD isn't this all pretty much the same stuff and the rollercoaster is ongoing? Maybe its the first time you fell in love, or the worst argument you have ever had with someone you love. Over the years after I turned 18, I was treated pretty bad as well by case workers I had and ER nurses and psych nurses because I also had an eating disorder. She told me the other day that I didn't need to be hospitalized or need medications because now i have a job. When he is having his episodes he verbally attacks me. I'm now 54. They actively seek to control the perception of BPD in the same exact way they try to control how they are perceived as individuals. But at least we're acknowlodging it and it's *&^$%&$& hard! For example, a male with BPD may engage in frequent binge drinking of. Its hard, and my life sucks.. My blog is aggis.wordpress.com, but its in norwgian, lol. Thank you so much for your honesty and strength. I admire all of you, everyone of you, that can speak out! Open Letter To All With BPD A.J. They have the ability to support the BPD. You sound like a good and strong person with a huge heart. Hi Rachel. My wife tried to take her life 16 days ago. It wasn't untill this year, despite 15 years of being labelled, i was able to get that changed. I have successfully alienated my oldest who is 12 and see how my behaviors are effecting my youngest who is 7. I am a woman with BPD. That with the right kind of help and support you can build a 'life worth living'. 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